Be open, be vulnerable.

In life you have to be vulnerable. You can’t live closed off. You will never live up to your highest potential with an abundance of joy and love, if you don’t open up.

Letting someone see you, the real you, is terrifying. But it’s also the purest thing you can do for yourself and for them.

Not everyone will be able to match your vulnerability, some may even be flat out terrified by your openness. But they can only hear what they are ready to hear.

If they don’t feel their own worth and value, your openness could come as a big scary shock, shining a bright light on parts of themselves they have buried deep.

But, sharing your light and dark with people will help them in the long run. They may not realise it straight away but it could be the start to their journey of forgiveness and openness, to love and joy, to embracing their true self and path.

I have BIG feelings that are a lot to keep inside sometimes. Sometimes they are of love, joy and passion, sometimes they are sadness, loneliness and confusion.

Being able to blog and share how I’m feeling is a great way for me to process what is happening in my head. It’s one of the most vulnerable things I think I can do. I use my words freely, when I can’t use my voice.

It’s a good way to explain to people what is going on with me. I free write (as I am doing now) and just trust that what needs to be said is said. I also trust that the right people will read my words and get what they need from them.

A lot has been happening for me lately. Some really good stuff, some really really shit stuff. Some stuff in the middle that I am just so done with. 

I feel a little lost but also completely in the right place.

I am changing and awakening to something bigger than me, and it’s a lot. I am questioning who I am, what I want, enjoying experiences I never would have even had the opportunity to try before. I have no clue what I want to do with my life….. well maybe I do but its sooooo different to my current reality my head can’t figure out how it could possibly be.

How do I let everything else go with no idea how it will all work out?

I physically can’t make myself do what I don’t feel aligned with any more. I know there is so much I ‘should’ be doing, but I actually can’t. It’s just not me any more and I just know all will be ok somehow. 

This blind faith is scary and many around me won’t/don’t understand it. I mean I don’t understand it really but I have to let go and trust it will all be ok and I am exactly where I need to be.

Being open and sharing my journey is what it’s all about for me. I have no idea if any of this will matter to anyone aside from me, but I think it will. If I step out and be brave, sharing my words, fears, hopes and dreams, I pray I will encourage others to do the same. 

We all need to live boldly and do what scares us. We need to keep telling people how we feel, even if it opens us up to heartbreak and hurt. We need to tell the ones we love that we love them.
We need to forgive ourselves and others for the past, move on with an open heart full of love and the courage to take that leap of faith, let go and trust that what happens is exactly what is supposed to happen.

To anyone reading this…… Be bold and brave, and use your head alongside your heart … (thanks for the inspiration Mumford and Sons)


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